So today I had a very long talk with two of my very best friends. They sat by and listened to me as I vented some stuff that's been bothering me lately, they sat by and let me ramble and let me cry. It got me thinking, I didn't know if a certain friendship was even worth trying to save, but now i know I need to at least try because everything I have with them I used to have with this person and I miss it, I want it back. Before I met these people I never had anyone who would let me do that, I never had anyone who would let me call them late at night when I needed someone, no one to hold me while I cried, I just had myself and pillows to cling to. I was sad and alone and I just wanted to die and thats why i need to try and make this work, the 'friends' i had before said they were there for me, but as soon as things got hard they ran. these people now continue to put up with me even though i get crazy and irrational, they stick by me and they love me, and thats worth fighting for.



To all my friends...i love you so much, you are the people that make my life worth living, you are the family. thank you all for putting up with me through my bitchy times, my depressed times, my crazy and irrational times, thank you for never giving up on me and always believing in me.



I know some of us have had some pretty bitter times, we've been through a lot, but I want you all to know, even if we dont talk much anymore...i think about each of you everyday, everyday i think of the fights ive had and the people i miss and i miss the people i dont see anymore and who i dont talk to anymore. i'm grateful for all of you because you made me who i am and all in all..i think im pretty ok. as corny as this sounds, you all taught me how to accept and love myself, how to make me happy with who i am so that others could be happy with who i am. thank you to all of you and thank God for helping us find eachother.